bus16 was so fucking long that i keep dozing off while messaging. But i guess i'm freaking pro still. Slept at 4am, woke up at 7am and i feel goddamn high still! For almost the whole day, yesyes. It was like moodswing, high low high low high low.I didnt really sleep during those lectures lo! More like stoning the whole time. /Impressed. I wonder if i should stay up whole night again! But then tomorrow i will probably drop dead before getting my ass out to meet the losers. Oh Stepup is cool shitxzzz! Hmm, i got no mood to blog, dont feel like zi highing anymore, okay i shall emooooo abit, after a night and a day of highness.
Sure, expect the unexpected. I wonder why am i not shocked over that supposingly shocking piece of news. Like i actually didnt know nobody actually cares for me. Like i didnt know i dont belong here. Like i didnt know theres noone who will actually look out for me. Like i didnt know, like i didnt know. You're the one who dont know a shit. You're the one who dont know how shitty i've always felt. You're the one who dont know how it feel to be in the middle of nowhere. Fucking no.where. You may care, you may claim to care, you may be there for me, you may claim to be there. Sure, but who knows the best? Who is the one who is suffering from all these shit which are seriously just a hell load of fucking crap? Am i suppose to feel sorry for myself? Sorry to disappoint you, i'm actually not that pathetic.
Why whine and cry and waste my life away after a fall when I can help myself up and get on with life, in a way or another? I'll get over this. I've been through worst than this, much much much worst. So i guess i'll be alright.
But then, that doesnt really says that i'm strong.
Life's pretty much filled with emptiness, its like a disease.
